Found a song which i like...

她让你憔悴许多
她让你不知所措
她一举一动你不停的对我说
我微笑倾听你说
我却越听越心痛
怎么你说的不是我
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候
我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你心中逗留

我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我总换不了你的心动

你让我憔悴很多
你让我不知所措
你一举一动我的心被牵着走
她不经意的走过
你就把我给冷落
嫉妒把我给吞没
她比我多了什么
让你愿意耐心等候

我想知道她让你痴心是什么
我想知道她让你疯狂为什么
我知道做的和她没有不同
但是我却不在你心中逗留

我想知道她哪里比我好很多
在你心中她和我有什么不同
我知道我比她付出的还多

我知道了她哪里比我好更多
在你心中我永远不可能会让你心动
我知道我比她付出的还多
可是我在你心中没有她多

FYI: The song is <知道> by 郭静 but the lyrics r damn sad. I get kinda emo when i listen to it but this shall be my next KTV hit haha!

Also watched a couple of movies over the past week - 'He's just not that into you' & the much acclaimed 'Slumdog Millionaire' & i preferred 'He's just not that into you' personally. Expected huh? Well the issues in the movie were just closer to my heart! Looking for love in all the wrong places, getting hurt, moving on, cheating/being cheated on...who hasn't been through it all. The movie's just a magnified version of my own life, with much better looking ppl in it of course! Slumdog was not too bad, but how can i possibly relate to living life in the slums of India & then winning 20million rupees on 'Who wants to be a millionaire'? The story offered optimism but was definitely unrealistic for me but to quote Dusk - "y look for realism in a movie?" I totally agree:) Next up i wanna watch 'Marley & me'!

I also received a gift from Mr. X 2 days ago...my very 1st bottle of SKII! I did mention abt wanting to buy the prdt recently to him but i really didn't expect him to buy it for me. And telling him abt it was not a hint ok. I know some ppl probably think all i have to do is say the word & i'll have guys spending their $$ on gifts for me but i'm NOT that sorta person. I can afford the things i want but i'm also extremely appreciative that Mr. X bought SKII for me as a gift. Yippee! Clearer & more radiant skin in 28 days!

Liping smsed me out of the blue yesterday and i was pretty surprised that the girl had gotten herself attached so suddenly w/o telling me. *tsk* She was pretty bummed that her so-called bf has 'flown her aeroplane' last minute & it was after she had bought the movie tix so i went to meet her for some 'girl-time' since i was free anyway. Not to watch the movie la, we met for dinner and some 'catching-up' cuz i needed to hear the whole story abt how she got together with this guy & she needed to know how i ended up homeless har har. *sigh* True friendship really never goes out of style. It really feels gd to know i have this friend to share everything regardless of anything & i was glad to have provided her a listening ear as well.

*I need a haircut!*
Haven't been blogging for awhile cuz i'm currently not staying at home as of last Sat. Therefore my use of the computer is limited until i get myself a comp, or til i go home, which is highly unlikely. Why did i leave home in the first place? LONG story. I had a fight with my parents which resulted in a certain amount of violence used (on me) & i'm f**king pissed cuz the whole thing wasn't even my fault to begin with.
I admit that there r many inconveniences not being in the comfort of my own home. All my clothes. shoes, bags, moisturisers for face, body & hair are at my place & so i hv limited stuff to wear & use. I'm not used to sleeping without a comforter so thank goodness Mr. X was kind enough to buy me one when we went to IKEA on Tuesday. I miss home-cooked food too! *sigh*
I've been slacking since i left home as i haven't been working. No events recently...maybe due to the recession.My last job was a corporate conference cum award presentation cum gala dinner held over 2 days @ the Ritz Carlton last Thurs & Fri and it sucked mainly bcuz we screwed up a lil during the award presentation bcuz we couldn't understand what the hell was going on since the entire thing was in Bahasa Indonesian. It's f**king not our damn fault ok. The Indo client scolded us and even called us stupid...she said 'u just hv to listen carefully' but what the f**k - it's not that we weren't listening, it's just that we dun f**king understand Indonesian!!! Just bcuz u can speak Indo doesn't mean ur smart, & just bcuz we can't speak or understand Indo doesn't make us stupid ok.
Anyway - some pics from my previous shoot with MDS:

It's fun modelling for MDS cuz i get to try so many different styles of clothes and see what kind of looks i can pull off. Plus Georgiana & Joe are really nice ppl...i can like bitch to them abt everything haha! So it doesn't really feel like working on a shoot at all:)
I really need to find more things to do to occupy myself. I'm really bored & i need to get a pedicure!
Just came back from my annual CNY dinner with my extended family but pictures will not be up yet, cuz i can't find my data cable which i use to transfer pics from my phone to the computer. I dun understand y ppl like me even bother buying a digicam actually, since i nvr seem to use it-_-".
Work has been slow these days, no events recently maybe due to the floundering economy. Xianz. One job coming up this thurs & fri, but the pay is kinda low. But i guess in times like this, we shd just count our blessings that there r still jobs for us rite? So just accept lor. Did 2 shoots for MDS last wk as well as the wk before, so some of the photos r up on the site already. Looking forward to see more from the latest shoot though, cuz the photos look much better.
The outfits r very nice, but very different from what i'd wear usually. Especially the 2nd & 3rd dress which r floral & kinda feminine...so different from me! I'm like the 'tanktop & shorts' kinda girl, and damn chor-lor also...haha. I know some ppl think showgirls r all vain/girly/image-conscious but i'm really not. I'm quite loud & fierce so i dun belong to the stereotype of typical showgirls. U know what they say - Nvr judge a bk by its cover.
Dental appt tmr...3rd wk in a row. I hope my rotten tooth gets fixed. It's alot better after the so-called root canal treatment but it still hurts when i drink or eat hot/cold stuff, which ain't a good sign cuz my tooth is supposed to be dead. Like it shd RIP alr cuz the nerves ought to be dead after the treatment. I'm not paying 600bucks to still suffer occasional pain. @#$!%.
*Sigh* My rotten tooth still hurts & i'm in one motherf**king hell of a mood these days bcuz of it. After my visit to the dentist on Wed i was pretty relieved cuz the pain had considerably lessened and the dentist himself assured me that by the 3rd day there shd be NO more pain anymore. My relief was shortlived becuz the pain came back today. It wasn't as bad as before where i was literally clutching my jaw & crying tears of pain, but it was painful enough to bother me & affect my mood+appetite.
My original plans for today was to finish my shoot for MDS, catch 'Changeling' at 4.30pm with Mr. X & have a sushi/sashimi dinner. But eventually we didn't get to catch the movie cuz i was late by the time i met him after my shoot so we went straight to Sakae Sushi @ Bugis instead. All was well with my tooth until i started eating & the pain just escalated even after i stopped eating altogether & i only had like what? One plate of salmon sashimi, one plate of raw scallop, one chawanmushi, a kizami unagi sushi & half a softshell crab temaki. My blardy tooth problem is freaking irritating me & i'm still relying on Ponstan to curb the pain even until now. I can't even eat what i want to my heart's content!!! *sobz*
I'm so gonna call my dentist tmr if the pain persists & i seriously wonder what's gonna happen if *touch wood*, the pain is still there after i complete the root canal treatment (which costs like 600bucks). There's no way i'm gonna pay anymore $$ cuz it's really very expensive...i dun even have a proper job lor. Times r bad!
I guess maybe it's time for me to consider my career options since i'm graduating in a month's time. *ponders*
Happy CNY!!! This came a lil' late but i had my reasons cuz i was suffering in pain from a tooth nerve infection since last last Sunday>.<
As with every yr, i help out @ Celine's manicure place during the CNY period but i no longer enjoy doing so cuz it seems like too much work when it gets really busy. The worst thing that happens is when u get fussy customers. My patience gets seriously stretched when i have to repaint the nail polish after i've finished painting all ten nails simply bcuz the stupid customer decides that she didn't like the color after all. Cannot make up ur mind is it?!! It's f**king irritating.
I managed to take a look at my forecast for the year ahead near theWaterloo Street temple:
Apparently my wealth, career & love luck r looking pretty rosy for 2009 haha! I pray that this forecast is accurate, except for the health part. I've already visited 3 dentists & a doctor twice for my toothache, & the 1st stage of the root canal treatment was done today so i really hope i get better soon cuz the pain is really crippling. I was lying in bed the whole of yesterday and i cried bcuz the pain was too much to bear. My diet basically consisted of panadols & ponstan, a painkiller prescribed by the doc. I couldn't even keep any food down - i vomited the small bowl of chicken soup i had for dinner & a small slice of bread i had in the morning before i took my meds. Ugh. On the positive side, i can lose weight from the loss of appetite, not that i actually give a damn abt that.
School's over once i get my last 2 assignments done by 2nd Feb, & its graduation time! Honestly, i'm apprehensive cuz i dunno what i wanna do. I just know that i dun want a dead-end 9-5 job where i'm confined to my desk in front of a computer. I'm in no rush to find a fulltime job as well so i guess i'm gonna take it easy for awhile, maybe go for a trip to reward myself for surviving @ SIM. One of my grpmates won't be graduating together with us (he failed a module & has to repeat), so that's kinda sad too. I just hope he hangs in there & get his degree eventually!
I know i've often mentioned that i dun ever want to have kids & all...but my lil' niece is just super-duper cute (i'm biased ok)! My cuz brought her kids over for a visit sometime before the New Yr & somehow a house with kids is always livelier & noisier. My cuz was telling us how Charlize the older one (she's 3 yrs old), got caught for doodlling on the walls & on the underside of the sofa & she shifted the blame on her baby sis, if u can believe that. I mean, how can a tiny baby who can't even walk hold a crayon & scribble on the walls? It's farnee, but it's also not a good thing that a child starts lying at such a tender age. That's partly why i dun wish to have kids - u'll have to spend a lifetime educating them & worrying abt them. It's a responsibility i dun wish to shoulder. ever. I feel like a kid myself so how can i even have my own kids?!! I'll rather own a dog that's loyal & loving & faithful.That's the lil' sweetheart~Amber. She looks a lil' cock-eyed in the pic though haha! She was playing with our 'dancing cow' - it sings & swings its head when u clap or touch it so she was very intrigued by it. I love the wonder & curiosity i see in a child's eyes - it's so untouched by the harsh realities of life & sometimes i wonder what/who turned me into such a skeptic & cynic. Oh well, let's skip the unhappiness here.As mentioned i've been busy with sch & i've got a perfect attendance record to show for this. I've been dutifully attending every class (mon, wed, fri & sat!) though i admit i haven't been paying attention cuz there's no exam/quiz for this module. Anyway i've been doing my readings at home so i really do know what's going on in class. It's not like i'm totally out of the loop. So far the only interesting happening during lecture was a visit from Mr Brown. Yes. That's Mr Brown THE blogger/podcaster.

Can't really see him clearly but yes that's him - Mr Brown. I was late for class so i just grabbed the nearest seat available which was at the very last row at the back & i didn't even recognise him. Or rather i didn't know what Mr Brown looked like in the 1st place so i thought he was like a fellow student talking abt his project or something until i asked the person sitting next to me. He's really pretty farnee though - he showed us alot of examples of his works & mentioned the trouble he got into for his politically incorrect content on Today etc. Personally i think he sounds just a tad conceited at times but that's not surprising coming from someone who made a success out of blogging. It's simply a quality that most successful bloggers/writers have cuz they're usually not shy to opine even in the face of controversy. Kinda like how i'm not afraid of public criticism for being a BI*CH. But of course i am in no way along the same lines as someone like Mr Brown. I'm like a super noob next to him haha!
And what's my entry without mention of food?! Went to a new place for lunch after a shoot. It's called Botejyu and apparently the specialty is kinda like the Japanese version of pizza. Quite unique.

It looks very unappetizing but inside this pile of mush are generous helping of prawns & scallops (cuz i ordered seafood flavor). U can also add chilli flakes & seawood for extra taste so it's not too bad. Though i still prefer other Jap food like sushi and ramen. I'm a ramen-lover! I want to eat Spala! :D
Watched 'Bedtime Stories' with Mr. X on Tuesday & it's silly. It started to get boring halfway & it's seriously not worth watching. Plus there was this irritating couple sitting beside us in the cinema who kept talking very loudly & i was quite pissed cuz Mr. X alr told them to keep their volume down politely & they obviously do not understand English. WTF. I mean, do u wanna talk or do u wanna watch the movie? If u wanna talk then just get out of the cinema la! I just cleared my throat very loudly & glared at them so that they would get the idea. To be honest i wanted to scold them but i know Mr. X would be pai-seh...so no choice. Suffer in silence.I bought my third book of the Twilight series 'Eclipse' from Kinokuniya & then had kopi @ Toastbox @ Wisma. Camwhoring time. I was laughing cuz Mr. X was like 'nice pic...but got weird person behind u'. Duh. That person was just minding his own business, not as if he wants to be in the pic on purpose so to this random coffee-drinker: sorry! Hope u dun mind.
So many things, so little time. Gotta do my CNY shopping & springcleaning soon! Maybe i can put a 'before & after' pic of my room on this blog after the springcleaning gets done. We'll see.
School's been keeping me really really busy these days & i've neglected to blog.

So here are some long overdue updates that have been pending...

X'mas eve - quiet BBQ dinner with family & co.
Yeah we were having a BBQ at the corridor/lift lobby area at a relative's place! Har har. It was kinda fun though, & i didn't even have to barbeque the food myself. All i had to do was sit & eat & my somewhat pathetic post-dinner entertainment was...
Tadah! Rubik's cube! Ok i admit - i SUCK at it. This picture shows the closest i actually came to completing one face of the entire cube, & i wasn't even close! And patience obviously not being one of my virtues, i gave up after like 15 mins. Grrrr! I salute anyone who can complete this damn thing.

New Yr's eve - Dinner with Mr. X
Mr. X brought me to California Pizza Kitchen(CPK for short, sounds like some expressway rite?) & since it was my 1st time there i wasn't sure what to order. We ended up sharing the soup which is a combi of 2 diff soups (i can't rem what they were) & it was pretty yummy. I actually thought we were supposed to mix them up before drinking, which would have been kinda gross. The Peking duck pizza was Mr. X's recommendation but ugh. i didn't really like it. It's like Chinese+Western fusion pizza & i'm definitely not an adventurous person when it comes to my food. Bleah. The Kungpao chicken spaghetti (another east-meets-west dish) was not too bad though, unfortunately there r no pics of it here cuz i devoured it before i could rem to take a pic=P

Apart from pigging out, here's an item i saw at a recent IKEA trip with a fren that i wanted to buy:
It's a coat rack & obviously i think it's damn useful for hanging stuff like jackets and caps & bags etc. The thing costs $49 & the only problem is figuring out where i can place it cuz there seriously isn't anymore space in my cluttered room for it. Arghhh! If i wanna buy it i'm gonna do it before CNY. Then i could do my spring cleaning & put it to use. I just love IKEA stuff! Just wait til i get my own home...then i'm gonna decorate the place according to the IKEA catalouges :D

More overdue updates coming up...*yawns*

*I dun like the person i've become...*