Gonna be free on Wednesday, Thursday and Friday since X will be away (as usual), and I won't be seeing him all the way til one week later. I used to HATE it whenever this happens to the point where I'll even get kinda 'emo' but throughout the years I guess I've gotten more or less used to it.

It's not so much as being independent because I am definitely not a 'clingy' type female who needs to be with the bf 24/7. God forbid, but there are times when seeing X on an average of 4 times a month doesn't feel like enough. I've told other people who are kinda perturbed that I actually don't make demands for more time together, but the truth is I knew what I was in for when I wanted to be with X so who am I to begrudge him right? I know he makes up for it in his way by showering me with gifts, though what I really want is just for him to be more sensitive towards my emotional well-being. But him being him, logic comes first and he tends to suffer the 'foot-in-mouth' syndrome and unwittingly hurts my feelings.

Anyway what I'm really trying to say is that I've forgiven him for the last boo-boo in my previous entry. I can't really stay mad at him for long and I know it's the same for him so try as I might, we can't stay away from each other. We just spent 5 days of leave together and 2 days of it was on a staycation at our very own Sentosa Island! We did nothing special but I didn't mind it one bit because I enjoyed every moment just lazing around with him, or holding his hand strolling down the beach. To me, that's utter bliss.

I guess I just have to remember this blissful feeling whenever I feel down that X ain't by my side and for the zillionth time, I will try to remain positive...til I get to see X again!