I shall not neglect my blog. I shall not neglect my blog. I shall not neglect my blog.

It's a really hard resolution to stick to when I feel like 24 hrs a day is already insufficient for all the things I need to do.

But when I think again, I'm really not as busy as some other people & I merely feel the way I do because I'm used to a more leisurely pace of life.

Overall though, I'm coping pretty well most of the time, considering. I've even been learning how to take a bus home on days when I'm not too tired. *pats myself on the back*

Chatted with X over skype when I got home today & it felt good unwinding & just talking to him even though its over a computer monitor. X sometimes annoys the hell outta me, & more often than not we've had our communication breakdowns but he's been my pillar of strength & he always gets me on track when I lose my way.

He's my movie kaki, my bitching buddy, my listening ear, my shoulder to cry on, my drama/movie download pirate, my IT support, my dietician, my pillow, my Santa Claus all rolled into one.

Enough mush.

Goodnite!
I'm glad to say that the past 2 days have been pretty good, since the person who gave me a damn hard time wasn't around to bother me or anyone else.

Whoever else he's picking on, I feel damn sorry for him/her but I'm just glad it's not me anymore. *fingers crossed*

X and I will be watching 'Despicable Me' this weekend and I'm so thrilled about it! I've been wanting to catch it ever since the first time I saw the trailer. It looks so damn farnee and the characters are SOOoooOOo VERY CUTE!

I'm expecting some noisy kids in the cinema this being a cartoon & all, which is fine by me, but one thing I absolutely cannot stand is parents who bring their children to an 'age-inappropriate' movie and then allowing them to make a lot of noise throughout the show. This happened last weekend whilst I was watching 'Eclipse' & I was so damn pissed I almost wanted to confront the parents who are so f**king inconsiderate.

First of all, 'Eclipse' is definitely not a movie for kids around the age of 3 to 4 or 5 or 6 whatever the case.

Secondly, if you choose to bring your children to such a movie, at least control them.

Instead these people allowed their kids to roam freely to the front row seats and let them continuing playing as if they were at the playground.

SERIOUSLY WHAT THE F**K?

I got especially irritated at the crucial points of the show, e.g. when Edward was proposing to Bella. You may snort if you're not a Twilight fan, but imagine how you would feel if it were a movie you were actually enjoying.

Parents, if you do not know how to control your children then my advice is NOT to bring them out. Leave them at home with the maid, or your in-laws whatever but I don't think it's your prerogative to assume that just because they're children it means that concession must be made for them ALL the time. Kids may not have any sense to know better but as adults, as parents, you guys ought to have at least some common sense, and some consideration for others. Otherwise you guys are not even fit to be parents AT ALL.

Tsk tsk. You may think its presumptuous of me to criticize especially when I have no kids of my own and I do not know the difficulties blah blah blah, but sorry, I DON'T REALLY CARE.
It's only Wednesday tomorrow, but this is already shaping up to be the worst week I've had so far since starting my new 'job'.

I've broke down in tears 2 days in a row, and call me a crybaby if you will but this is the way I deal with my emotions.

I cry not because I'm scared, since I'm not the least bit scared by verbal threats of reporting me to my 'manager'. I cry not because I want sympathy, even if YOU are capable of mustering up some level of sympathy which I highly doubt so.

It took me every ounce of my willpower not to make a retort when confronted with a situation which made me feel that I was almost being bullied. But I have a freaking limit when it comes to tolerance and if YOU push me again, I will push back. Write to my manager if you wish, if you feel you have a case, but I'm a smart individual and I'm not afraid of any investigation with regards to my suitability for the job.

Whilst I understand that every person has a different style of delivery in teaching methods, NOT respecting me as a trainee/student means I will NOT accord you any respect as well. I will listen and absorb your teachings to the best of my ability, but I will curse & swear all the same. Being strict and being nasty is a thin line, and once I think you've crossed my line, THAT'S IT!

I'M NO F**KING PUSHOVER!!!
As everyone ought to know by now, no updates on my blog = BUSY BUSY BUSY!

I know my updates are seriously non-existent for the past one month but it's been one hectic week after another as I struggle to keep up with the pace of my new 'job'. I've hardly had any time with X, though we finally managed to squeeze out some time to catch 'Toy Story 3' last Saturday and I'm also extremely sleep deprived. On average I get about 5-6 hrs of sleep if I'm lucky, or else I make do with 3-4 hrs, which makes me function kinda erratically-_-".

As the control freak in me has deduced correctly, the transition phase of my new work has caused a rift between X and me, & I don't just mean the amount of time we actually have together. I've been highly stressed out and cranky & as a result I admit my attitude sucks sometimes. But on the other hand, X can be very un-empathetic. Enough said because this blog will not be about me airing my dirty laundry.

Being a control freak, I like to anticipate all sorts of possible scenarios and preempt undesirable things from happening but I know this isn't always a good thing. I thought I've learned to let go of my need to control every situation including love & relationships but now when confronted with uncertainties, my inner alarm has been triggered & I'm back on 'HIGH ALERT' mode.

I just care too damn much. That's just how foolhardy I am.



'Today's the day
I pray that we make it through.

Make it through the fall,
Make it through it all
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

You're the only one
I'd be with till the end.
When I come undone
you bring me back again.'
Human beings are complicated creatures and relationships between human beings are even more complicated.
Do a person really have to be politically correct all the time?
How do you define being really actually nice or just being fake?
When do you draw the line btwn being blatantly honest and being too honest for your own good?

When in doubt, I always say be true to yourself. The complex and somewhat treacherous nature of inter-human relationships gets me down at times, but I'm just glad I have friends who care enough to be equally honest with me and remind me of what's truly important. So contrary to popular belief, I do have friends & I mean REALLY good friends, not those you have on FB.

To those who have issues with me, don't suffer in silence cuz if you do that then it's YOUR problem. I won't change who I am to ingratiate myself with anybody, but I will let others learn to accept me for who I am in time to come.



'Just be what you want, just as long as it's real.'
You know you've not been blogging for a LOOoNG time when you have to stop and think for several seconds before entering your username and password to login to Blogger, which was exactly what just happened to me=/

The past 2 weeks have been almost frantic for me as I struggle to adapt to a new work environment. I've been cabbing to work everyday and I swear there's no way I can get up any earlier to take the bus, cuz that would mean waking up at 5am which is impossible for me. 6.30am is already quite a feat for me ok.

I'm seriously sleep deprived these days & I'm thankful for this long weekend, but alas how am I going to survive the months after that? I look in the mirror and I HATE my eyebags. I kinda miss my old life but I can't complain much cuz I chose this path myself. I only wish X could show me more empathy but sometimes its like we're on different wavelengths.

That aside, we did manage to spend some time together the past 2 weeks. We watched 'Shrek Forever After' last weekend as well as 'SATC 2' yesterday. It's a challenge trying not to get annoyed dealing with the weekend crowd as well as kids who make alot of noise in the cinema. This is again something I have to get used to since I no longer have the luxury of hanging out during the weekdays. I know I shouldn't allow myself to get irritated over these little things, but it's just really hard not to be grumpy cuz that's how I am. I've been trying very very hard to tackle my prickly attitude, but I don't know if it's enough or when it'll be enough. I'm no longer Miss Hothead, but I can never be Miss Docile. And that's not who or what I wanna be either.

Back to the movies - SATC 2 was slightly disappointing for me. I felt that the first Sex and The City movie was so much better in terms of the drama and laughs whereas SATC 2 was somewhat more serious in terms of the issues explored in the movie. Some of the things in the show were more than enough to reinforce my no-kids policy so in future it's just going to be me and X, just like Carrie and Big. I hope that will be enough for him too. I guess this is why SATC is so successful, cuz it explores real issues in life and relationships, making it all too relatable esp. to the female audience. Me? I'm part Carrie, part Samantha!

"Me & You, Just us two."
Back from my Taipei vacation with X but unfortunately my camera has been sent for repairs so I can't upload my pictures for now since I can't find my card reader as well. Funny how things always seem to go missing when you actually do need them.

This being my first vacation with X, I've finally got to experience how ANAL he really is. He was forever nagging at me to pack/arrange my stuff neatly, not to mess up the dresser with all my toiletries, not to leave my cardigan on the bed, to cap the shower gel after using etc etc...

Let's just say he's worse than my dad & mom combined. And to set the record straight, it was a friggin hotel room! I'm usually not a slob in my own house, but I do believe it's normal to let loose on vacation ok. Especially if there's a chambermaid who'd clean up after you.

As for the used shower cap on the sink plus leaving clean tissue on his toothbrush, my apologies. I duly obliged to clear those up after X complained.

Overall we had fun though I think we blew alot of $$, especially for my own shopping. I brought NT12000 with me (abt S$600) but I was left with NT1000 on my second night there-_-" In the end I had to get by paying by card wherever possible and X also withdrew some cash from their ATMs for me.

Last but not least, I thank X for being so patient with me throughout the entire trip, enduring shopping after shopping expedition with me with nary a word of complaint, and for being so generous as to sponsor the trip. I know we've had some hiccups, but I appreciate his kindness and generosity.

Definitely looking forward to a next trip with X, & photos will be posted once I get my camera back=)