On the plane on our way^^:




I know i haven't been blogging at all for like the past 2 weeks BUT i've been sick, busy & tired. First i was sick - had a cold (still having the sniffles actually), then there's work - private event for Dunhill, which is damn tiring cuz there's no break or food at all (WTH!) & so now i'm just super tired. Last day of the event later & i just wanna get it over & done with so i can get abit more rested over this weekend.
I've just loaded the pics of my Taipei family trip onto the comp & i still need to edit them before uploading. Sianz. Photos will have to wait but i realised not alot of photos were taken during this trip & to be honest - the trip wasn't totally enjoyable as well. Somehow going with ur family just aint as much fun i guess, esp mine cuz we had such a big grp (6 of us) & we all wanted to see & do different things=/ I kinda feel like i need a trip of my own. Who would i go with? Where would i go? I dunno. *sigh*
Any helpful suggestion? These r my key considerations:

*Not too expensive (so Europe/Japan r out)
*Can be a R&R place but preferably with some shopping for me to do
*Nearby destinations r preferred
*Safe & clean

I've friends who suggested Bintan but it looked boring when i Googled it. It didn't look like it had any shopping, and those water activities r definitely out for me cuz water is not my element. I can't swim & i basically freak out if i'm like on the sea or something. So if there's anyone with any other suggestions pls let me know!
Been back for a couple days from my Taipei trip...but i've been lazy. Pics coming soon i promise! Meanwhile enjoy Jolin's new song <妥协>.



Observe the lyrics~very sad but meaningful. This song goes out to someone i once knew & loved but if i ever see him again, i'll go the other way & pretend i didn't see him.
My head hurts...

I've been having a headache at around this time for the past few days...

What's wrong with me???

Can't help but feel this has been a gawddawwwful year for me, & we're not even halfway thru 2009 yet.

I've got a whole assortment of paracetamol, ponstan, various antibiotics - thanks to all the doctors who've charged me an exorbitant sum for the meds=/

My mom even made me take a flu vaccine, partly due to the swine flu (as if it helps!) & partly cuz she insists i need it cuz of my weak immune system.


I need my holiday. Countdown: 10 days!
Life seems depressing these days.

I haven't been sleeping well the past few nights cuz I keep getting these irrational dreams & when I finally drift back to sleep after being jolted awake by one stupid dream, my subconscious starts running wild again.Sometimes I get like 3 different dreams that totally doesn't make any sense at all.

*sigh*

Perhaps my brain is just too active sometimes.

One thing I'm looking forward to: a holiday in 2 weeks time. Finally.


How i wish u could take me away with u.

I dun wanna be left behind. I dun wanna be left waiting.

Everytime u go i get so scared.

I dunno if u'll come back.
Sometimes spiteful words said in a moment of anger can do so much to push someone over the edge...

Sometimes 'sorry' does not undo the damage that's already been done.

I'm learning not to hold any expectations from now on cuz i can't afford any more disappointments.

I need an escape.