I have not seen X in a long time and the first thing that happened when I got to speak to him was a small argument between us.

It was all so silly actually...I wanted him to come out and meet me today but a part of me knew that X was really tired after work and needed his rest. That part of me wanted to seem like an understanding girlfriend but yet another part of me felt bummed. I don't want to be like the unreasonable girlfriend who throws a tantrum just to get her boyfriend to meet her but my inner devil was whispering in my ear, 'What? He could have met you but he doesn't want to! He probably doesn't miss you as much...tsk!'

I tried to keep my feelings to myself which obviously still showed cuz X was puzzled by my erratic behavior so we argued before I finally told him the real reason why I was unhappy. I was actually on the verge of tears because I just missed him SO damn much that as much as I hadn't wanted to seem too demanding I just couldn't help myself.

So anyways X apologised and rushed down to meet me and we had a great dinner plus dessert after that. *ahem* The real dessert, not sex if that's what you're thinking. All I really really wanna say is I love X alot. There are conflicting emotions within me at times, especially when we have these quarrels but at the end of the day we manage to work out our problems together and I wouldn't exchange what we have for anything else in the world.

So this song is for him.




"I hear you in my dreams
I feel your whisper across the sea
I keep you with me in my heart
You make it easier when life gets hard
Lucky I'm in love with my best friend
Lucky to have been where I have been
Lucky to be coming home again..."

I really can't promise that there won't be any more arguments in future but I can promise to keep holding onto what we share.