Having a relationship and keeping it going really isn't an easy task and many a time, I've reminded myself that X is in this relationship as much as I am and he too, has made many changes and sacrifices for us.

But when is enough ever enough? Why is the light that I'm supposed see at the end of the tunnel getting dimmer? We cope with every dificulty and challenge the best we can but yet I have to admit I don't really carry high hopes that everything will pan out for us. I'm weary and I don't want to fight it anymore. Maybe it's not meant to be and we're not meant to be.

I'm not trying to be difficult and on the contrary, I'm trying to be reasonable. Considering that it isn't fair for either of us to give up one thing or another to accomodate each other, I'd rather no action be taken and I'll get over whatever unhappiness there is in due time. Perhaps X and I just place a different value on the things that are involved in this equation.

Hypothetically our relationship should always come first but I don't think it's fair for X to make certain changes for our relationship because in actuality, our relationship will not be adversely affected even if he does not make that particular change. I want to be fair and by being fair, it means that no one should have to do anything unnecessary just to please the other party, especially if the problem is caused by extraneous circumstances and is by no means any of our fault. Get it??

"X, I really hope you understand."