In the blink of an eye we've come close to the end of another year and whilst I'm not sure how many of us (me included) actually fulfil their annual 'New Year Resolutions', I still feel inclined to make a list for year 2011 so here it is:

(NOT in order of importance)
*Tone down my temper
*Learn swimming
*Spend more time with my family
*Have a better relationship with X
*Save more $$ and spend less on online shopping
*Practise yoga more often
*Lose 2 kg (or at least maintain my current weight)
*Learn to turn the other cheek

2010 has been another rollercoaster year for me. I've found a new job which I'm beginning to appreciate, and along with it a multitude of challenges that mainly involves juggling work and my love life. Not to be mistaken - I'm not the type of girl who's hung-up about 'relationship issues' all the time. I'm just being honest with the whole world when I say that the main challenge right now is indeed making things work with X because of our conflicting schedules. But somehow, I just have this feeling we'll work our way through it, just as we've done so with every other problem we've encountered. (Wow, that actually sounds like it came from another person, but its that elusive optimist in me speaking actually.)

Temperament wise, I'm actually pretty cool with where I stand right now because I have toned down alot during the past year. On a scale of 1 to 10, I'd say I've gone from an 8 or 9 all the way down to maybe a 3. I still let my anger get the better of me occasionally, but I'm working on it. Bear in mind though, that keeping my anger in control will not mean that I don't have a temper anymore because when push comes to shove, I'm not afraid of confrontation. That's just who I am because I think if I don't stand up for myself, then who will?

Which brings me to the issue of turning the other cheek. I'm aware that I'm frightfully stubborn and this trait makes people worry for me cuz they think I'm liable to say things without thinking, or rather sugar-coating it. And they're right. I cannot control myself sometimes and I will speak up in the face of seniority/authority, especially if I feel that something is strongly injustified. The libran in me can be very aggressive when it comes to fairness and I don't believe in being politically correct. It's dangerous because I work in an environment where there's a strong sense of hierarchy and expression of opinion is often taken as 'insubordination' but I think I can take care of myself. However to spare X a few less gray hairs, I will try to turn the other cheek...which will be even harder than learning to swim=/

Sounds like I've got my work cut out for me so my last resolution will be...to be able to fulfil all of New Year resolutions!