As everyone ought to know by now, no updates on my blog = BUSY BUSY BUSY!

I know my updates are seriously non-existent for the past one month but it's been one hectic week after another as I struggle to keep up with the pace of my new 'job'. I've hardly had any time with X, though we finally managed to squeeze out some time to catch 'Toy Story 3' last Saturday and I'm also extremely sleep deprived. On average I get about 5-6 hrs of sleep if I'm lucky, or else I make do with 3-4 hrs, which makes me function kinda erratically-_-".

As the control freak in me has deduced correctly, the transition phase of my new work has caused a rift between X and me, & I don't just mean the amount of time we actually have together. I've been highly stressed out and cranky & as a result I admit my attitude sucks sometimes. But on the other hand, X can be very un-empathetic. Enough said because this blog will not be about me airing my dirty laundry.

Being a control freak, I like to anticipate all sorts of possible scenarios and preempt undesirable things from happening but I know this isn't always a good thing. I thought I've learned to let go of my need to control every situation including love & relationships but now when confronted with uncertainties, my inner alarm has been triggered & I'm back on 'HIGH ALERT' mode.

I just care too damn much. That's just how foolhardy I am.



'Today's the day
I pray that we make it through.

Make it through the fall,
Make it through it all
And I don't wanna fall to pieces
I just wanna sit and stare at you.
I don't wanna talk about it
And I don't want a conversation
I just wanna cry in front of you.
I don't wanna talk about it
'Cause I'm in love with you.

You're the only one
I'd be with till the end.
When I come undone
you bring me back again.'