"Dear Mr.X,

I know its been a tough journey full of ups and downs. Despite all the 'shit', I love you too.

Yours sincerely,
Amanda S."

After hours of debate over the phone with X each and everytime, I just think I'm really dumb cuz it doesn't really matter that much who wins the argument, does it? Both of us are equally obstinate and opinionated but we only end up hurting our relationship by being stubborn. Any apologies that come after that are usually too late.

It wasn't easy for me to get back with X and it certainly hasn't been easy getting our relationship on the mend. There's been mistakes made in the past on our parts and it's taking a toll on us because we've never really completely erased the hurt/resentment/anger, we've merely suppressed them. Not very healthy, is it?

I ask X for his forgiveness and I give him mine too. I also promise not to get upset over his insensitivity because I will remind myself that it isn't intentional. I will simply let him know if he ever hurts my feelings unwittingly next time. Of course I hope that he learns not to do it again but even if he does it, I will forgive him because I know its not deliberate. People can't help it if they're stupid.

"X, if you're reading this, you know the last line is a joke right?^^"