Haven updated this blog in a damn long time. Too much time spent on doing other stuff, including my much-anticipated Sentosa 'staycation' with X.

I know a staycation sounds pretty dull but it isn't. We spent our time at the beach, or at the resort's pool, went for dinner and/or coffee at various spots within the island, took strolls hand-in-hand, or just lazed in bed. It was utter bliss=) X got sunburnt though, which is not MY fault cuz i didn't know he would burn so easily and HE himself forgot to apply the sunblock on his chest. It was kinda funny to see his 'lobster-red' chest afterward, but i know the burn is killing him la. Poor thing. I will never ask him to go get a tan anymore. I love him fair or tanned anyway=p

X had a whole week of leave & i'm really happy that we got to spend most of that time together. I used to be scared of letting 'love' take over me, hence creating this conflict within myself because i constantly felt the need to be 'in control'. But I've learned that 'power' & 'love' are 2 opposing forces - i need to relinquish one to gain the other. So i learnt & it's great because once i come to embrace my feelings for X completely & not worry obsessively abt 'losing control' or trying my darndest to control everything, that conflict disappears & i can finally relax. I dun have this chip on my shoulder anymore. On hindsight, i've wasted alot of time being difficult, finding fault with X & the relationship & just plain complicating things. It was just stupid but at the very least I haven't lost. I gained instead.

As part of the 'new & improved' me, I've also started taking yoga together with my mom & sister. We had our second session today & it was a total body workout. You can really feel the stretch in your muscles, the blood circulation in your body, and after that you feel really sore & tired but i'm loving it! Yoga doesn't just strengthens the body, it strengthens the mind. I'm starting to feel more 'zen' already! Somehow I find myself less agitated and annoyed at the small things that used to bother me.

For those who sneer at this & think its all 'psychological', go try it for yourself. I used to jog and skip regularly but i can guarantee that yoga is as much of a workout as any activity, and even more.