I feel as though i've dropped off the face of Earth for the past few days. No work, no checking of email, just eat, sleep, laze & play. Only got bothered by a pesky phonecall from some idiot who refused to make his identity known even though HE was the one who called me. Duh.

It felt so good not having to worry abt anything for that few days. My family celebrated my mom's bday with a ktv session at Kbox followed by a buffet dinner. I spent another day just curling up in bed reading a mystery thriller and then another day with Mr. X. We had lunch & watched 'The Ugly Truth' which had a predictable storyline with some laughs.

But now i'm back to reality & i'm stuck. It's like i know what i want but some irrational fear & worry is just stopping me from getting there. I really need to stop procrastinating because if i don't make that 1st move, nothing's ever gonna change & i just end up making myself unhappy.

The old Mr. X would simply tell me 'I dun see what's so difficult' etc which would piss me off cuz i would think that he didn't understand. But i realised now he was just telling me as it is, insensitive as it may be. Thankfully he's been more understanding of my anxieties since we patched things up & i know it's really up to myself to do something to change/improve the situation instead of bit*hing abt it.