POSTED ON Friday, August 28, 2009 AT 2:56 PM \\
It's supposed to be my BIG day today, but i wasn't in much of a celebratory mood. I felt like i'm in mourning instead and no, it's not my wedding, it's my convocation.

I honestly felt like the timing couldn't be worse. I didn't feel like going anywhere at all but i know i had to go on with my life as per normal if i want to get well. I got too consumed by my relationship & totally lost myself & now i want to find myself back. Not that it means i want to put this totally behind me, i still feel very strongly abt him so that's exactly why it's crucial that i show that i'm all good again. I won't be that weepy, paranoid, psychotic bitch anymore.

Anyway back to the convocation. I still managed to survive the entire somewhat boring ordeal & amazingly, i actually look pretty nice in the gown despite my puffy eyes & dark circles.

Me with an RMIT graduate teddy bear & a bunch of flowers, courtesy of my parents.

My dad & mom. Initially i was damn sad that some ppl's boyfriends brought them flowers but thkfully my dad bought them for me too. Bah. Who needs a lousy bf anyway?


Calista & me. Yongjie said our cohort only got 3 'chiobu' - me, her + Tuesday! Haha. Me & Dusk. I hereby confer him the title of my new bf aka Best Friend! He really stood by me for the past few days when i had been a wreck. With Tuesday here who graduated with distinction. Congrats! And that's Dusk behind us who showed up in btwn on purpose.
Managed to catch Ali for a quick photo. Poor him, he was fasting so he couldn't eat anything at the buffet reception.
Dusk, Yanling and me.

With Yanling.

Group photo time!


I'm pretty amazed that i held my composure the entire day without letting my sorrow show. Only Dusk knew so only he noticed how 'stoned' i looked. Whatever. I still think i looked pretty good anyway. Perhaps that's what years of modeling trained me for - to smile & look happy even when i'm not.

Another gd news is i'll be taking a short trip to BKK next weekend. I'm taking this opportunity to enjoy myself and clear my head. I dunno if I would be speaking to Mr. X before the trip, but no matter what, i'm on my road to recovery.