Time for my random musings & a word of warning - this will be a very self-centered entry. (Notice almost every sentence starts with 'I' haha=p)

I've had this feeling of dissatisfaction since one or two months ago and that feeling has continued to badger & stress me out.

It's a feeling that i'm missing something in my life: PURPOSE.

I've a great loving family, albeit a little volatile. (My fight with my parents & leaving home in a fit of anger is one gd example.)

I have my wonderful Mr. X, who's simply wonderful to me. (Ahem! The usually feisty me has a tender side too!)

I've been able to use my looks to get jobs & earn easy $$ through modeling. Sounds like i'm bragging but i'm NOT.

I recognize really, just how blessed I am compared to many others who may not be as lucky. I've always believed that the key to happiness is knowing one word: contentment.

I've been restless & discontent recently because i'm really pondering over the direction i want for my life & what i truly want to do & because of my overly-analytical mind which likes to imagine every possible scenario, dissect every detail, & imagine the worst, i haven't been in the best of moods.

But u know what? Life throws u a curve ball every now & then - u just have to try & catch it. I honestly believe that there r ppl out there living their lives aimlessly & it's gonna take TIME to figure out something as impt as one's purpose, goals & direction etc. I'm just gonna take the path less traveled, explore & experiment cuz after all we only have one life=D

All that philosophy aside, I'll be starting work this coming Monday & i'm really excited. Excited & just a little anxious. Can't reveal much yet ~ but i do think i'm gonna benefit & learn a great deal from this experience, even if it might just be a short term commitment. The plus-es are: convenient location near my place, flexible hrs & a nice boss (*fingers crossed), & i get to put my writing skills to use! Lotsa tedious reading to do on subjects that could bore me (what would i know abt aviation?!) but i'm just gonna roll with it!

Other random things i thought abt today:
*I love playing 'Spot the Difference' on Facebook with my mom~2 pairs of eyes r better than 1!
*I love printed dresses so i bought 2 today
*Swensen's 1-for1 lunch is value for money, though the food is so-so
*Men should not wear white pants or white blazers, unless they're F4
*Do not 'suck face' or 'la ji'(hokkien)in a public place like Toy R' Us, esp sec school kids.It's disgusting & there r children ard ok!
*I really miss Mr.X & i can't wait to see him tmr!
*I think i've lost weight. My appetite seems to hv shrunk & i get stomach upsets frequently these days. Lousy digestive system!
*The 1st person i called to inform abt my new 'job' was Dusk.

Ok i think i shall stop blabbering on. Time for bed so goodnitezzzzzzzzz!