Just dropping a quick note here since i need to get some early rest for CommunicAsia which starts tmr!!!

The exclamation marks !!! do NOT indicate excitement but rather dread of the next 4 days of 'suffering' to come=/

Freezing my arse off inside the exhibition hall? Check.

8 hours of standing in high heels? Check.

I just need to survive 4 days. Just 4 days. *positive energy*

On a totally random note,

My mid-yr resolutions
-get more exercise!
-control my friggin temper
-be less negative & cynical
-learn to give ppl the benefit of the doubt
-stop walking ard with a blardy chip on my shoulder*

From this list it's pretty obvious that the changes i hope to achieve pertains more to the emotional & psychological than the physical aspects.

I dun really know what. how. when. During a moment of reflection I just realised what a pain i was for the past year with my negativity, cynicism & pessimism towards everything in life. Yet i thought i had learned to let go of past mistakes & moved on when all along i had trapped myself under this dark cloud, unable to trust and regarding those close to me with a suspicious eye.

I'm tired of victimizing myself & making others pay the dues for my previous mistakes. If i continue living like this i dun think i can ever be a happy person. Even worse i'm allowing myself to continue being a victim.

I dun want to be a pathetic victim anymore. I've made mistakes but i paid my dues. I AM MOVING ON TO FIND MY OWN HAPPINESS! Goodbye to u & all ur lies that have held me back. They're not holding me back anymore. Phew.

*It feels much lighter when u let go of all that excess baggage*