Been kinda slow with my updates recently...due to work+friends+shopping+flu-_-"

Spent almost the whole of yesterday in bed sleeping off the flu bug. My throat was already acting up on Sat but the flu only started when i woke up on Sun. The first thought that came to my mind was 'sh*t.can't go jogging again...' cuz i've been getting lazy & i really want to kickstart my usual jogging routine before i get too comfortable & stop exercising altogether. Arghhhh.....fats can't wait!

Had a shoot on Fri for a certain magazine. Shall not disclose all the details til later. I felt a little intimidated at first cuz all the other models i saw were 'ang-mohs' but i soon got over my apprehensions as the stylist and makeup artist were real friendly ppl. I really love what they did to my hair!


The curls rock! So different from my straight hair but it's a hassle to use the curling tong if i want to create this hairstyle. I'm too lazy :P

The shoot went smoothly & thus finished earlier than i had anticipated so i was able to meet my sis for a shopping spree afterwards. Felt like super long ago since i went shopping as well as hung out with my sis & it was a 'fruitful' trip haha...if u get what i mean.

Was supposed to meet Mr. X for a movie on thurs but he cancelled on me cuz he came down w a cold+mild fever. I was super disappointed cuz i was almost all ready to leave my place & then it was all for nothing. I called dusk to complain...actually it was more like to scream at him cuz i couldn't scream at someone who was sick so i could only vent my disappointment & frustration at someone else. Poor dusk. But i'm really appreciative that he always listens to my crap & for pointing out the error of my ways when i overthink things & become irrational. Anyway i went out on my own later cuz i had an appt @ Pink Parlor then i went shopping which successfully detracted me from my earlier unhappiness.

Met up with Liping on Wednesday for dinner when she finished work. Poor girl. She's always so busy with work now that i rarely get to see her! We had Pizza Hut and then we went to walk around Tampines Mall...it's surprising how we girls can still find things to buy when we're just 'walking around' haha :D As usual she likes to bug me abt my 'status' with Mr. X but my answer remains the same because i'm still not ready to commit myself YET cuz i have alot of issues & baggage & i dun wish to complicate things by jumping the gun.

Last but not least, my hamsters had babies again! My mom is like a 'breeder' for hamsters now cuz they just keep reproducing every 3 weeks or so...after which we pass them on to my uncle who sells them @ his aquarium shop, but only after they grow bigger first.





Still in the process of making changes to the layout of this blog & yes, i am extremely fickle & it obviously shows from the changing of the skins, color, font that i keep making so far>.< Dusk commented that the previous 'Hello Kitty' skin was a tad too cutesy (which i agree) and i'm kinda happy with this pink & black color theme since it's one of my fave color combi ( SO Avril Lavigne & i happen to like her!!!). I adore the skulls & crossbones design too haha.

Bear with me peeps! More updates soon i promise!
Just came back from the chalet & it did turn out pretty well after all, despite the fact that only Winnie & i went. We had a great time gossiping & bitching with Candice as well as Vanessa (who came later @ abt 10pm) and before we knew it, it was already 1am & we almost didn’t want to leave. We had to cuz Vanessa had sch + presentation in the morning the next day.

There was also a magician at the chalet & he obviously entertained us with alot of tricks. If not for him the chalet might have been a lil’ boring & i admit his tricks were pretty good cuz try as i might, i just can’t SEE how he did it He ended his ‘performance’ at ard 10pm and that was when Winnie, Candice and me started talking away, and Vanessa who joined us later when she came.

We talked abt our jobs, the hazards of getting stalked by weird ‘fans’, we talked abt fortune telling & horoscopes, we talked abt men and our relationship issues & alot of other stuff that i can’t list them all here…but everytime i tell ppl MY story, MY experience, i feel almost like i’m reliving a nightmare, like i’m digging open my old wounds and making myself vulnerable again.

I dun want to sound like a sad case here, but nobody can really know how bad it was. Maybe to other ppl it’s just a relationship that turned sour, it’s not as if someone died or something, but i did feel that something died that day. A part of me really really died. Everytime i relate my experience i get teared up and choked up and the pain i went thru would well up in me again. I can still remember the details so clearly, each word that i said and he said, every moment he disappointed me again and again until i finally come to realise that HE will never change and i have to learn to let go. I showed them the faint physical scars that remained and it felt like the emotional scars hadn’t quite gone away too.

He turned me into a jaded cynic who can never afford her trust & faith in anything anymore. I know i was the one who misplaced my love & faith on someone who can never reciprocate even a little so this is a lesson he taught me and in a twisted way, i guess maybe i shd thank him for teaching me a life lesson i’ll never forget. After all, what doesn’t kill u is supposed to make u stronger right?

*Because of u i never stray too far from the sidewalk, because of u i learn to play on the safe side so i dun get hurt. Because of u i try my hardest just to forget everything, because of u i dunno how to let anyone else in. Because of u i’m ashamed of my life because it’s empty, because of u i am afraid…because of u*
I'm supposed to go for a chalet gathering later on, but i'm somewhat not as enthused abt going now that June said she's not going cuz of exams-_-' *sigh* Hopefully it'll still be fun if the other gals turn up as well.
Mr. X bought me some stuff from his recent trip to Taipei, the usual fattening stuff such as chocolates and the local tidbits...plus THIS!

My new sleeping 'partner', in addition to my bolster & fave beanbag :P

It's some character called 'domokun' or something...i've nvr seen or heard of this creature before & it's supposed to look menacing but i told Mr. X it looks like poop cuz it's dark brown in color haha! I decided to rename it Chomp Chomp cuz its teeth looks like it's ready to chomp on something & X commented that it's similar to me - cuz i like to bite ppl! :P
I also got Mr. X to buy me some skincare products while he was there, cost me like 150bucks for just the moisturising serum & eye gel so they had better be good for my skin! I really wanna fly to Taipei myself for a holiday...i wanna eat & shop, eat & shop~

*sometimes i run, sometimes i hide, sometimes i'm scared of u. But all i really want is to hold u tight, treat u right, be with u day & night...baby all i need is time*